One Year

Well today marks my official one year anniversary of BFL. I remember borrowing my SIL's BFL book and reading it over the 4th of July weekend, promising to start it on the 11th. It's funny to look back at my first "before" photo, b/c I remember dimming the lights to take it, thinking that would help me from looking too terrible. I walked out covered in a towel and dropping it only for the few seconds required to let Jon take the picture. I was so embarassed, standing there bulging out of the only 2-pc bikini I owned. I felt like the chubby wife next to the very fit & athletic husband. I NEVER want to be that wife. I know you've all seen it and thought "Wow, wonder how SHE got HIM?" or "he could do so much better". Well, that's what I had going on in my head anyway. I didn't want anyone to look at me and think that. So, I started my first challenge. I was doing so well, I never cheated and did everything exactly as the book states. I was doing really well, until week 9 hit and Jon was preparing to deploy. I went to a deployment briefing and left so depressed...and stopped at the convenience store on the way home for Jack Daniels & oreos. LOL What a combination huh, of course the oreos were my idea. I know a few of you were reading my blog back then, and you'll remember me talking about how many oreos I ate that week. It was terrible! Week 10 didn't get any better. I tried going to the gym and just sat on the bike in tears...so that workout didn't go so well! LOL I finished that week by packing up the house and cleaning to move out, then moving everything back to IA for a year. Needless to say, I was a pathetic mess for a little while and never took my final 12wk pics for C1. I was disappointed in myself, but proud of what I'd done in 10wks. I'd never stuck to anything that hard and kept everything so strict. Go me. =)

Onto C2...and C3. What a joke. I was cheating by day 3 and free day always lasted more than a day. It was sad. I never really wrote down any goals or anything, nor did I finish either of them. C4 actually didn't go too bad. I didn't make too many drastic changes in pics, but my running improved tremendously as I prepared for the 20k. This brings me to my current challenge, which is actually going pretty well. I've gone back to my daily check-in's on tracker and reading fitness sites to stay motivated. It doesn't hurt that I know Jon will be home in ONE MONTH and in TWO MONTHS we'll be getting ready to hit the beach in the caribbean!! You hear that folks, NEXT MONTH MY HUSBAND IS COMING HOME FROM IRAQ! I can't believe it's only a month away. What a year.

I know that I wouldn't have made it through this year as well as I did without the support here. I've made so many new blends, I remember starting this blog with only, maybe, two or three people reading my blog occasionally. But those 3 people who commented would just make my day with each little "you can do it" or "I'm here for you". You know who you are & I can't thank you enough. Now I've found my list of blends really adding up and when you all check in on me and offer words of encouragement, it really means a lot to me.

So, one year down and I think I've made some pretty big improvements. I wonder what I can do in the next year??